These boys are going to kill me

I have literally not had a moments peace today. I can’t pee by myself, I can’t even step outside to make a phone call without them up my ass. I just want to be left alone and I know it’s hard with little ones but I’m telling you if I don’t get a moments peace my head is going to blow up. Any other time they’d be keeping themselves occupied. There are tons of things for them to do, they have tablets and movies and coloring books, even a fenced in backyard but NOOOOO they have to drive me batshit crazy, asking 2 thousand questions and drinking my drink even though they have their own! I am seriously ready for dinner and bed bc I think that’s the only way I’ll get the quiet I want. I’m so annoyed and it doesn’t make it any better bc hubby is out on a tugboat for work so he won’t be back until after they are in bed!! I just want to scream at the top of my lungs. I do feel rotten bc I told my 10 year old I didn’t like him. He can be the sweetest but he is such a bad influence on his baby brother. He does things he KNOWS he shouldn’t do and then brother does it. So they oth end up getting in trouble. My head is pounding right now and my throat hurts from yelling bc no one listens to me around here unless I yell. Its so stupid. I just want peace and quiet. No fighting, no yelling, no screaming, no tattle telling, no throwing things, no stomping or running. I love being a Mom it has its perks and there are some pretty amazing moments but today has been a bad day and I’ve been fighting with these boys all damn day it seems.  And I really mean it when I say that they’re going to kill me. I’m going to end of having a stroke or something bc they want to act like fools all the time. My Mom always told me that God won’t give you more than you can handle but I don’t believe in God and even if I did he underestimated me immensely.